| My stomach twists upside-down and my eyes well up with tears. When I think if you're referencing me in things... Although things didn't turn out the way we wanted them... I can't help but to think I'm still being attacked... Maybe I'm too sensitive, maybe I'm too paranoid... Maybe its not even about me and I'm just a fucking crazy... But I guess it just shows you that... I'm still hurt... It's so hard... For me to move on completely~ although i really meant what I said at the time I still feel like there where alot of questions you've probably had that I didn't address. I'll admit I still visit your blog... I know I shouldn't but I really cant help it... The vague posts leave room for me to fill it in with my name... Often times I'm not sure if you've planned it... You know quite a bit about me so... If anything you know the best way to hurt me... Just know that I've never had ill intention, I'm not perfect, and I'm sure I've done things that you don't approve of... I may not know how or why... There might not have been a proper answer... But I had feelings for you... Far from what you may have believed or thought... I don't want to dispute anything or argue... I feel like we're beyond that... To be honest I can't handle something like that anymore. I just want to extend an invitation for you to seek that closure you deserve... Cause I'm unable to fully move on myself cause. I feel you're holding on to something... I really don't want to fight... I don't have it left in me... Don't take this as me attacking you because I'm not... Or I might just be fooling myself... Which generally is the case... |
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